Ugh, just ugh.
I’m having one of those nights were everything sucks. Nothing feels right, I feel like no one gives a fuck about me. I have it when I feel this way, and its happening more and more often lately. I know its just because of that damn shot. But really I hate this so much. Just ugh.
Sometimes life makes me wanna…
drink really heavily. At least its not all the time though. But I have nothing to stop me so I just may start doing that. We’ll just have to see. Ill be back on laters.
“Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? I could really use a wish right now.”
I only ever get on here to rant…
So here it goes… Lately I’ve been sad, I dont really know why I just have been. I have a lot of really happy moments but when they go away I feel sad. This wouldnt really be a big deal except that I’ve been taking it out on Clay which hasnt been good at all. I tell myself that I’m gonna get over it and forget it but it keeps coming back and causing problems. It helps that I finally figured out what I want to do career wise (while I try to start a photography business) which is be a medical assistant. Of course, this comes with its own set of problems because my dad is going to hate it since its not a “4 year degree” but whatever not my problem. Theres stilll a lot of other stuff going on right now that isnt really all that clear and I’m trying to be patient and adultesque but its hard. Patience has never been one of my strongsuits.
On the bright side Saturday April 10th I will have 2 photo shoots to do (if all goes as planned) and I may be getting a Canon Rebel T1i soon (again, if all goes as planned).
So if you happen to get a minute to pray, pray for patience and wisdom and happiness and peace for me.
Wow, when I type it out it sure sounds like I’m asking for a lot.
Hopefully, I’ll be on to update soon.
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